The world of weight loss

My whole life (or at least that's what it feels like) I've been overweight.  I make no bones about it, I mean, it's pretty hard to hide being fat.  It's far easier to hide my romance novel collection from the friends who would tease me.  I was lucky in both school and adult life to have not really run into people that make fat jokes around me, I tend to make them about myself, because that steals all the fun out of some peoples life.

But this is who I am, there's no hiding it.  While I lost a bunch of weight (we're talking over 100 pounds) in 2008-2009, I was laid off from my job, got really depressed, stopped exercising, stopped eating healthy, stopped caring, as I talked about here.  A year later (when this picture was taken), I was back up to the weight I was before, but I wasn't ready to get back to being healthy, despite the issues I had when camping.

But now, I'm back, and determined that even if I never loose all the weight I want, that I will not be this person.  Because this person is still going to eat better, and make better choices.  And because if I don't, the zombies in the Zombie 5K app are going to get me.

The weight loss world is terrifying.  If you're not in it, you almost can't understand the scope of insanity that we're talking about.  There are conflicting reports about what is, and isn't good for you, everyone thinks they know what is best (ok guilty, sometimes I come off as preachy), and while everyone is trying to do their best, we're people, and we make mistakes, and the world of weight loss is filled with the guilt over mistakes, over who we are, and what we're planning on doing.